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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
2:55 am	dam its been like 2 years since i put anything in this stupid fucking thing hmm its been a really long ass time since i put something in the stupid fuckin thing so why not do it again cuz im borad as fuck and people piss me off ok well im not the stupid little fag kid that all the other entrys show i was alot younger then so im diffrent now witch is good fuck all those stupid miss beliefes i used to have when i was younger and alot more druged up. since then i been trying to quit i still love meth and coke though even though i dont do them any more.
Tuesday, April 8th, 2003
5:30 pm	hi hi. i love kathy. i want to lose it with her and mabey that would happen ;) ha i wish
Friday, June 28th, 2002
8:43 pm	spagetio's suck crack, spoon, narf, potato, im a flying tomato. anywhays lala blah blah life sucks and then you die and the people you meet along the way eather suck too or join the ride. i aint got no freinds anymore cuz kaitlyn is a butt monkey that stole them all cuz she didnt have any oh well i got more important things to do like take care of my mom and dad who crashed the harley and got really messed up mom got a broken arm and dad got 4 broken ribs a broken ankle and a ruptured spleen. and still i aint on drugs :P haha you stupid fucks who thought i was on drugs cuz i was hangin out with drugies mainly april but yeah. maby if you learned that living a scean dosent come with all the steriotypes and its about your mindset maby you would fit in maby you wouldnt be a mallpunk anymore. and im the loser right at least i live my own life instead of trying to be the most backwards hippocritical drama queen in our school. opps i did just say that didnt i my bad.
Sunday, April 21st, 2002
6:01 pm	Take the What High School Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel.
5:55 pm	which children's storybook character are you? this quiz was made by colleen
5:50 pm	Which Angel would you be? By Angel Falls
Tuesday, April 9th, 2002
7:43 pm	This man's the sporty type. He has a strong heart and easily comes to terms with the truth. He likes sport and physical challenges, and quickly gets bored with routine. As for women, he gets bored if they are too formal and proper. You need to be enthusiastic and ready to be spontaneous as the occasion requires it. He enjoys activities such as bush walking or rock climbing, so to keep the relationship running smoothly you should give them a go. there is no relation ship and this is mine not his its me not him okeyday
7:34 pm	Big eyes Guys who draw big eyes are those who demand affection all the time. He wants your input and interest in everything he does, from the simplest things in life to the most important issues there are. You are the most important thing in his life, and he wants you to show that you think he's the most important thing in yours. gee i wonder who that would be. hmmmm whos the most important person in my life. i have no idea at all-- You are a mystery and it seems like you are trying to hide something from others. Both sexes find you interesting and attractive. You enjoy exploring your individuality and don't really mind what others think of you. If you agree with the compliment and say "Yes! Everybody is saying that about me!", it means you are attractive and charming. You have a good sense of humor, and are open, confident and witty. im not attractive stupid test You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be. You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces. CAT You are neat, clean and tidy. You don't like to be pushed around and you won't do something just because you're expected to. You don't live by the rules - you prefer to make up your own instead. If you are interested in an issue, you will find out more about it because you want to, not because you have been told to. me neat no Many fingers People who wear a total of four rings or more lack self-confidence and are always on the look out for true love. They love life's luxuries, but find them a poor substitute for friends and a lover. me but i cant find any rings i like so its not literal. QuizBox.com / Personality tests / Your jeans and your personality Here is your analysis Baggy Jeans Wearing baggy or oversized jeans is a sign of people who are somewhat insecure, lack self confidence, and feel inferior to others. BLUE Peaceful, just and reasoned are the best words to describe you. Friends often come to you for advice when they have problems. You love to make people laugh and gain happiness simply by being surrounded by smiling faces and the sound of laughter. no one ever comes to me for advice though i guess ppl dont trust me enuff oh well You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though; you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high. change guy him he whatever to girl her she, ok and im not really missing any relationships cuz no one likes me.
Monday, April 8th, 2002
7:32 pm	Green You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature. Find out your color at Stvlive.com!
7:11 pm	A - Age: 16 B - Best Quality: none im a loser C - Choice Of Meat: no coment D - Dream Date: I know but I wont say cuz it wont happen anywhay E - Exciting Adventure: raves are fun F - Favorite Food: I forgot G - Greatest Accomplishment: none ive accomplished nothing good cuz I am a loser I thought I told you that already H - Happiest Day of Your Life: dunno yet my life isn?t over I - Interests: bombs/fire J - Jelly: ikky K - Kool-Aid: run away kitty or your ganna be neon purple L - Love: same as dream date M - Most Valued Thing I Own: my sterio but that?s what I own not the most valuable thing to me N - Name: I also forgot O - Outfit You Love: pants and a shirt P - Pizza Toppings: pizza sucks Q - Question Asked To You The Most: are you retarded or why do you dress that way its scarry R - Rage: against the machine: good band S - Sport To Watch: I cant stand watching sports its to boring cept cars its fun when they crash and go boom T - Television Show: I don?t watch much tv U - Usage of indigenous terms: spanorkal???? W - Winter: YaY snowboarding time Y - Year Born: bad year for the whole world cuz now im hear Z - Zodiac Sign: Im not shure shut up 1. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR LJ USERNAME? RaVeR-X a Raver on X se isn?t it simple 2. NAME FIVE [5] OF YOUR FAVORITE PIG-OUT FOODS. 1) popcorn 2) milkshakes 3) whatever is in alans car 4) la di da di da 5) smurfy smurf smurf smurf 3. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER? no 4. NAME ALL MEMBERS OF THE BEATLES. poopie beatles blah blah blah 5. WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE? no days never and no where 6. ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY. April being my friend and wes dying wait he didn?t die yet damit 7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY? School sucks 8. WHAT IS THE MOST INSANE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR/TO YOUR CRUSH THAT HE/SHE MIGHT NOT/MIGHT KNOW ABOUT? cant say she reads my LJ and shell get really really pissed at me 9. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING. One with fire lots of fire and things that go boom 10. WOULD YOU EVER JOIN TEMPTATION ISLAND? if I can blow it up shure 11. NAME THREE [3] TEACHERS YOU LIKED IN HIGH SCHOOL/ELEMENTARY. Mr. Merril Mr. Wolven Mr. Salomon (hes soo much fun to piss off) 12. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE QUOTE? WHAT IS IT? ?NarF!!!!? Pinky--- Pinky& The Brain 13. MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS... [CARE TO SHARE THE STORY?] still not saying she reads my LJ 14. THE SCHOOL PICTURE YOU BURIED IN YOUR BOTTOM DRAWER? I don?t have no school pics um that are buried at least 15. DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES? WHAT ARE THEY? I wanna shoot myself to see what it feels like and I like being hit by a specific person but she dosent like to hit me oh well 16. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? why they don?t like me. 17. WHO ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDs? April 18. NAME ONE TV CHARACTER YOU'D MOST WANT TO BE. Vash he?s awsume and hes not fugly like me 19. IF YOU WERE FAMOUS, AND WERE TO BE A GUEST ON A TALK SHOW, WHOSE SHOW WOULD YOU CHOOSE? WHY? I wouldn?t I don?t wanna be famous I wanna be a DJ for the music not the fame 20. GIVE YOURSELF A PORN STAR NAME. Mr. happy pants 21. DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD SLEEPING HABITS? I have a teddy bear 22. WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER? road trip or just a week with friends on the beatch its all good 23. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW? any ones in my winamp or on a cd of mine lets see like 300ish 24. WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG. We are the nobodies. ?hear me rawr? and we wanna be sombodie 25. DO YOU KNOW AT LEAST ONE DISNEY SONG BY HEART? WHICH ONE? no 26. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE. cant its to confusing for normal ppls 27. YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR: its sleep stuff who gives a shoit 28. WHAT'S IN YOUR BAG? what bag wtf im confused by this question 29. WHAT'S IN YOUR WALLET? I don?t have a wallet 30. HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW? I aint got no money 31. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES? my boots 32. IF YOU COULD'VE GONE TO YOUR SENIOR PROM IN A DIFFERENT OUTFIT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? full out candy rave shait 33. HOW WAS YOUR SENIOR PROM? I dunno 34. TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS. they all suck no one remembers and nothing happens and everyones is mean to me. I don?t even get stuff from ppl so that shows how much ppl care I like giving stuff bu ti also like being remembered too 35. WOULD YOU RATHER BE A HOBBIT, AN ELF OR A DWARF? a dragon 36. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE? rave stuff a house cars cds and whatever april wanted 37. WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL? listen to music wail staring at the ceiling 38. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU? lets see theres smurf, pinky, tyty, mr. bob, Dr. bob, retard, dumbass, e-tart, freack, and soo on if any of you call me tyty ill get maad at you and then youll be a meanie poophead. 39. NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS. gir,vash,bubbles 40. WHAT ARE THE MAGAZINES YOU READ ON A REGULAR BASIS? BPM (the electronic culture mag) Current Mood: depressed
6:41 pm	[01] Full Name: Alexandra [02] Sex: female [03] Birthday: November 14, 1986 [04] Age: 15 [05] Sign: Scorpio..rawr.. [06] Height: 5'4.5 ..we measured. [07] Weight: 125ish.. ugh. I'm determined to lose at least 10 of it. [08] Hair Color: Purple. [09] Eye Color: Brown. [10] Ethnic Background: Mostly Italian.. 'n Irish, Hungarian 'n German. go mixed-backgrounded-Americans. btw, my last name's ITALIAN, not Japanese. thank you. [11] Birthplace: Concord, New Hampshire [12] Hometown: Fairfield, Connecticut [13] Father's Name: William [14] Mother's Name: Christine [15] Sibling(s): Ben..'n Zoey. she counts kinda. [16] Best Friend: I..dunno. Lizzie? [17] Are You With Anyone?: Nah, not really. got fuck buddies 'n bondage buddies, but nothing committing. [18] Are You In Love?: No. [19] Are You In A Relationship?: Wait wait.. we went through this already? stupid survey-makers.. keep track of your damn questions. [20] Are You A Virgin?: Yup. [21] Do You Believe In Love At First Sight?: No. I believe in lust at first sight, which could lead to love.. but it wouldn't be love at first sight. [22] Do You Believe In True Love?: Not really.. I suppose so. I dunno. I dun care. [23] Do You Enjoy French-kissing?: Yesh.. way fun. [24] Do You Keep a Picture of Your Beloved Somewhere?: Kinda. [25] Any Fetishes?: Guy's hair.. like Jakes. I love. and hats.. ::nodnod:: [26] Describe Yourself: Quirky.. and lost. but striving to be found.. [27] How Do You Think Others Would Describe You: Strange. [28] Your Best Feature: Toes! juust kidding.. uhm.. eyes? I dunno. [29] Your Worst Feature: Insecurity. by far. [30] Have You Ever smoked?: Yess'm. [31] Have You Ever drank?: Yeah. [32] Have You Ever Done Drugs: Yessir. nothing hardcore though. [33] Do you like to travel?: Mmhmm. [34] Have you ever visited another country?: More mmhmm's. [35] Do you own any pets?: Zoey! my love. I miss Cocoa though.. [36] Do you have a cell phone/pager?: Nah. parents suck.. and I'm cheap. [37] Do you like amusement parks?: Yip. [38] Have you ever been to a concert?: Yipee [39] Do you have any piercings?: I do, infact. [40] Do you have any tattoos?: Nah. nothing permanent, anyway. [41] Are you a vegetarian?: Yush. meat = unhappy Alli [42] Do you play a musical instrument?: viola 'n piano 'n..slowly my guitar. [43] Have you met/do you know anyone famous?: Met 'em, yeah.. lots, kinda. [44] Do you belive in fate?: No. not really. [45] What is the background on your computer screen of?: RHPS lips with ROCKY HORROR ROCKS MY SOCKS under it..
Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002
5:37 pm	thats it i quit....................
Sunday, March 31st, 2002
9:18 pm	yesterday wast the singal hardest thing i had to do drug related cuz som ppl had coke in the car and they were doing lines right next to me. i turned it down ad was crying because of how baddly i wanted some :( oh well i promised. april, mal should be really happy cuz there the only freinds i have that dont do no drugs.
Saturday, March 30th, 2002
11:17 pm	today i went on my first date with melanie it was all good cept her brother was there so nothing really happend that kids almost as nutty as me. im really happy today and im all hyper i dont thinck ima get much sleep tonight. oh well its all good. today was a really really hard day for me to keep clean but i did some ppls were snorting lines in the care and i was right there right next to them and it was supposedly really good shit. Current Mood: happy
Friday, March 29th, 2002
9:45 am	i hate my e-mailers i got anew one at yahoo its Gothic_Vash@yahoo.com just wanted to let everyone know Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, March 26th, 2002
4:34 pm	today me and mel kissed yes a real kiss. so now i can say i kissed a girl. it was cool. Current Mood: happy
Monday, March 25th, 2002
5:46 pm	1. Do you own any plaid clothing? Nope 2. Do you own Converse shoes? Nope but I want this pair that have neon green soles and are neon orange cuz they make soles for em that are glowwy 3. Do you own Saucony shoes? no 4. Do you own old school Nikes? no 5. Do you wear tight pants? Tightes pair o pants I own are 26 inch cuffes but wes stole em 6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants? yeah 7. Do you know what a squatter flap is? no 8. Do you own a messenger bag? yeah 9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest? No 10. Do you own braces? no 11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth? I dunno 12. Do you have short, shaggy hair? Short no shaggy yes 13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches? I dunno 14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon? I dunno 15. Do you think Mohawks are "neat"? yeah but not the ones where your head is shaved 16. Is your hair black or red? Neither sorta redish pink though 17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye? Special effects (not special FX they suck) 18. Do you own a bandanna? yeah 19. Do you wear plugs in your ears? no 20. Are you amused by safety pins? Yeah but im easily amused 21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute? yes 22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them? Sorta my boots have nails and tacks in em 23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London? Wtf are these places 24. Do you enjoy leopard print? If its on furry stuff anything goes cept naked fat ppl and men that?s just ikky HABITS/BELIEFS: 25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything)? Not really 26. Are you an anarchist? yeah 27. Does the American flag anger you? Don?t care 28. Are you "working class"? no 29. Do you dislike "preps"? don?t care just as long as there cool there cool if ther an ass however they are evile 30. Do you dislike Hot Topic? Yes cuz there a monopoly dick heads but where else can I get cool cloths oh yeah my fav store e-bay 31. Do you smoke cigarettes? no 32. Do you smoke cloves? no 33. Are you a thin waif? no 34. Are you vegan/vegetarian? no 35. Do you think meat is murder? no 36. Do your nighttime activities usually involve drunken underage vomiting? no 37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park? Yeah so 38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week? No that?s grose every day 39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower? Yeah but I was out in the woods in the middle of the byou all alone huntin so it didn?t matter 40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor? Don?t thinck so 41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is? no 42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac? dunno 43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison? Whos that 44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club? I wish but no SPEECH: 45. Do you say "rad"? no 46. Do you say "rockin'"? a lil 47. Do you say punk "rawk"? I dunno 48. Do you spout the word "oi" at random times? no 49. Do you say "punk's not dead"? no 50. Do you say "punk is dead"? no Last and least important MUSIC: 51. Do you like bands with "." in their name? ok 52. Do you like bands with "theory" in their name? ok 53. Do you like bands with "the" in their name? ok 54. Do you ever precede your own name with "the" at the beginning? shure 55. Do you like bands with the F word in their name or album title? Dosent bother me 56. Do you think "Christian punk" is an oxymoron? Anything with Christian in it is generally bad 57. Are Blink 182 fans "posers"? I dunno I aint no punk 58. Do you have frequent debates over what exactly constitutes a sellout? yeah 59. Have you ever brought the headlining band food? I dunno 60. Do you have show flyers affixed to your walls? sorta NAME 4 BAD HABITS YOU HAVE: - drugs but I quit - saying the lala song - saying poopie - poking ppl that don?t wanna be poked NAME 4 PEOPLE CURRENTLY ON YOUR BAD SIDE: - anthony - wes sorta a lil - melisa - phil NAME 4 SCENTS YOU LOVE: - summer time at 2 o clock in the mournin - gasoline - matches - ummm April I guess NAME 4 THINGS YOU'D NEVER WEAR: - prep - pop - girls cloths well shirts at least - tight cloths NAME 4 ANIMALS YOU LIKE: - dolphins - cats - white tigers - baby seals NAME 4 TV SHOWS YOU LOVE: - blue sub 6 - rocky horror - slc punk - the osbourns NAME 4 CELEBRITIES YOU DON'T LIKE: - j-lo - rap ppl - pop ppl - god NAME 4 DRINKS YOU REGULARLY DRINK: - soda - coffey - milk - water NAME 4 ICE CREAM FLAVORS YOU LOVE: - cokkie dough - vanilla - chocolate - blackberry - NAME 4 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF: - I have the lovest self estesteam ever - I hate me - I light fires - I love my freinds NAME 4 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOUR FAMILY: - they suck - my mom is stupid - my brother is a hippy - and my dog is retarted
4:24 pm	Which female character from Final Fantasy 7,8,9 are you?? Go find out here! made by rainecloud
Wednesday, March 20th, 2002
5:38 pm	i have a girl freind Yay im no longer alone. i feel so special. i have a girlfreind. and yeah. well what happend was i asked melanie out and she said ok. and then sarah said she was really happy i asked her out so yay. :) Current Mood: bouncy
4:35 pm	i am the anti osama blob